dream

i had a dream last night
walking around winding unknown streets
not knowing where i was going
but somehow knowing without doubt that you were close by
i heard her call you on the phone
and pretend not to know it was your number
and i could hear the sound of your breath in response
and i wondered what you thought of her and her voice
and if you would prefer mine

and i walked along the winding streets
filled with fresh cut grass and small budding trees
and i saw you in black and black and white
and i walked as close as i dared beside you
but you didn't see me
and i was torn between wanting you to
and not wanting you to because it was me
and i wasn't quite prepared for you to see me
and frankly i was quite prepared to see you
but i kept on walking walking towards you
but far enough away that you couldn't smell my need
and close enough that i could smell yours
i woke up and remembered the dream
remembered it like i'm living it and breathing it
and needing it without wanting to need it
and i'd have this dream analyzed but
i already know what it means
and so do you