return to sender

night time flickers in your candlelight eyes
as my response glows softly in the abyss leading to a widowed exit
your name was once synonymous with home
your body once told the fairy tale ending of where my mind used to roam
thoughts of you now fill the space between holes left unattended
those that are still in need of being mended
once is now a long time ago
and only in the dark do my eyes hide the part of you that hasn't left me

before is now the voice of my desire
as the past sits and waits for me to conspire
a way of going back to that lost moment in time
when pieces of you and i were intertwined

daylight hours spent falsifying smiles
unnatural movements of hands fingertips and slow moving feet
bent on running backwards
misshapen phrases and lonely late night daydreams
mingle with the smell of you that still resides in the air

maybe i spent a little too much time
sipping champagne while i waited for sugar coated alibis
you on the other hand were warmed by the winter sun
cool in the summer heat and born to shine like fool's gold
maybe i needed other ways to spend my days
instead of tracing the outline of your footsteps
and trying to find enough of myself to fill them
while you made it all look so easy with your wayward smile
and blue eyes that turned green only when i looked away

maybe i melded the inside particles of pieces you forgot to overturn
made a new space for that heart shaped ideal i had long ago planted
and wound myself furthest away from your perfected ring finger
maybe i spent a little too much time
thinking of ways to slow down and unwind the turn around of time
while you were moving on in words followed some time later by actions
seen and never heard