my heartache

somehow
you managed to break down
the walls
that guard my heart
and you didn't stop there
you ran through the maze
as though you've been there
before
you broke away the chains
and knocked down the doors
and finally
you knelt down before the lock
and carefully inserted the key

allowing you access
complete
and
infinite
access to my heart
now exposed to the world
vulnerable
and unprotected
but happier than I ever imagined
it could be
until
I shared my news
I spoke of you
the one who resided in
my heart
the one and only
who managed to get that far
without being pushed away
without giving up
without looking back

his response to the news
emerged
from the depths of his being
a scream
a scream unlike any I have known
for
this scream exploded out of
his mouth
sending shattered pieces of glass
flying at

my heart
my happy
unprotected
vulnerable
exposed heart
hitting it with a force unmatched
to this day
piercing my heart
defenceless to the pain
for the lock
the doors, the chains
the maze, and the walls
had vanished
had been rendered useless
when faced with your power
your strength
your determination
your love
but
with no protection
my heart was not alone
in its suffering
you
living in my heart
felt each unloving blow
you too were under attack
and subsequently
I asked you to leave
I begged you to leave
I made you leave
because
as painful as the reaction was
to me alone
it was nothing compared to
the sorrow
I felt knowing you too
would feel pain
and so you left
without looking back
having given up
having been pushed away
leaving me alone
once again

I changed the lock
and hid the key
I bolted the door
and added more chains
I created a new maze
and rebuilt the walls
making them
higher
higher than ever before
and

now I sit here
alone
wondering if anyone will
come along
and find the entrance to
my heart
if anyone will take the time
to kiss my wounds
and put an end
to
my heartache
(like you did)