lung cancer

you sucked me in and spit me out
pushed and pulled
and let it all hang out
cradled hopes momentarily
before you let them fall
and all for what

you cigarette butted me
right out of your life
left me cold and feeling
ten years older than before

i was a slave to some
twisted version of your love
even though you couldn't be
bothered to care for more
than three seconds flat

you had me tied
twisted caught up and bent
on making you see me
some hopeless loveless
emotion filled cause
that i'm struggling to define
to some distant friend of mine
who for the life of her can't see
why the hell i loved you
and you
you couldn't bring yourself to
look at me